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Sunny Mourning

It’s a terrible feeling
To mourn the living.
I slowly fade with agony.

I call your name,
You are not here
To answer or listen.
I don’t have you to talk to,
You may as well be dead.

If you were dead,
No one would tell me.
I was dead to you alive,
No one knows my name
In your world.

In my world
All know your name.
They hear it and don’t see you,
You may as well be dead.

Maybe you never existed.
Maybe I was just imagining
You were here.

To me you are dead,
And you also killed me.
I look at you from the other side,
Which one of us is where?

My entire world ceased
When you left,
And did not return.

You killed yourself in my world.
I don’t have a picture of you,
To remember,
The time you were alive.

I shed quiet tears,
For the renaissance of my fears:
I see that you are not coming back.

My sadness is swallowing me
Like a black hole.
I don’t want to say goodbye,
Please come back, don’t die.

23 responses to “Sunny Mourning”

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  1. pvcann Avatar

    Powerful sadness/grief.

    1. Tut Yashar Avatar

      Thank you 🙏🏼

  2. Amy Chaos Avatar

    Not me crying over here 🥺 This is good, like I felt like you were reading my deepest secret thoughts that I would never say out loud.

    1. Tut Yashar Avatar

      That’s the best thing you can say to me! Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️ and we are not alone

      1. Amy Chaos Avatar

        It’s good to know we aren’t alone & when we can’t find the words someone else can

      2. Tut Yashar Avatar

        Very true ❤️❤️

  3. bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1 Avatar
    bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1

    Bittersweet 😕

    1. Tut Yashar Avatar

      Thank you 🙏🏼😊 I’m glad you see it sweet too

      1. bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1 Avatar
        bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1

        Am I your worst follower? 😂

      2. Tut Yashar Avatar

        Why would you ever say that! Lol

      3. bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1 Avatar
        bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1

        I think I almost always never get your poetry right and you’re always having to explain it to me. And I’m a bit annoying 🤪

      4. Tut Yashar Avatar

        You don’t annoy me at all, and I appreciate your reading and feedback each time.
        Before I was joking because talks of death aren’t usually referred to as sweet

      5. bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1 Avatar
        bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1

        It sounded bittersweet. Like a love that was lost.

      6. Tut Yashar Avatar

        I was just joking with you 🙂

      7. bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1 Avatar
        bloglifenstuff40b7eba1f1

        Written words are so hard to interpret 🤦‍♂️

  4. Jim W. Avatar
    Jim W.

    These poems are in the great tradition of lost love, unrequited love, hopeless love poems…and you do the Tradition proud! I used to write songs like these, I think …be safe warm and happy 😊😊

    1. Tut Yashar Avatar

      Thank you so much, I am humbled. I can’t even say I wish I didn’t feel this way because so many good and new things come from my heartbreak, or healing. I am happy along with the sad 😊 and you too 😊

      1. Jim W. Avatar
        Jim W.

        That’s a good way to be. Happiness isn’t pain or pleasure, it is the MEANING you can make out of those experiences….cf. THE FOUR QUARTETS (T.S. Eliot) Stay cool 😎😎

      2. Tut Yashar Avatar

        Exactly!! 😊😎

      3. Jim W. Avatar
        Jim W.

        mansplaining is what I live for 😊😊

      4. Tut Yashar Avatar

        It’s only that if you say it is. I never thought of any of your comments in that context

      5. Jim W. Avatar
        Jim W.

        thanks, I’m just joking 😊

      6. Jim W. Avatar
        Jim W.

        thanks 👍

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