It’s a terrible feeling
To mourn the living.
I slowly fade with agony.
I call your name,
You are not here
To answer or listen.
I don’t have you to talk to,
You may as well be dead.
If you were dead,
No one would tell me.
I was dead to you alive,
No one knows my name
In your world.
In my world
All know your name.
They hear it and don’t see you,
You may as well be dead.
Maybe you never existed.
Maybe I was just imagining
You were here.
To me you are dead,
And you also killed me.
I look at you from the other side,
Which one of us is where?
My entire world ceased
When you left,
And did not return.
You killed yourself in my world.
I don’t have a picture of you,
To remember,
The time you were alive.
I shed quiet tears,
For the renaissance of my fears:
I see that you are not coming back.
My sadness is swallowing me
Like a black hole.
I don’t want to say goodbye,
Please come back, don’t die.
WRITTEN: MAR 29, 2022
23 responses to “Sunny Mourning”
Powerful sadness/grief.
Thank you 🙏🏼
Not me crying over here 🥺 This is good, like I felt like you were reading my deepest secret thoughts that I would never say out loud.
That’s the best thing you can say to me! Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️ and we are not alone
It’s good to know we aren’t alone & when we can’t find the words someone else can
Very true ❤️❤️
Bittersweet 😕
Thank you 🙏🏼😊 I’m glad you see it sweet too
Am I your worst follower? 😂
Why would you ever say that! Lol
I think I almost always never get your poetry right and you’re always having to explain it to me. And I’m a bit annoying 🤪
You don’t annoy me at all, and I appreciate your reading and feedback each time.
Before I was joking because talks of death aren’t usually referred to as sweet
It sounded bittersweet. Like a love that was lost.
I was just joking with you 🙂
Written words are so hard to interpret 🤦♂️
These poems are in the great tradition of lost love, unrequited love, hopeless love poems…and you do the Tradition proud! I used to write songs like these, I think …be safe warm and happy 😊😊
Thank you so much, I am humbled. I can’t even say I wish I didn’t feel this way because so many good and new things come from my heartbreak, or healing. I am happy along with the sad 😊 and you too 😊
That’s a good way to be. Happiness isn’t pain or pleasure, it is the MEANING you can make out of those experiences….cf. THE FOUR QUARTETS (T.S. Eliot) Stay cool 😎😎
Exactly!! 😊😎
mansplaining is what I live for 😊😊
It’s only that if you say it is. I never thought of any of your comments in that context
thanks, I’m just joking 😊
thanks 👍