My heart is flapping,
Here I am rising.
Opening up to a beautiful bloom,
It feels exciting.
Like I’m smiling at myself,
Making peace with myself.
With the tears and dirt,
With the pain and hurt,
Here I am smiling at the world.
I’m sorry for all the pain that they caused you.
I’m sorry it was so hard and I wasn’t there
To remind you how sweet you are,
To keep telling you how good you are
So you will remember.
Instead, I let you forget.
I was busy being blind
And you didn’t have me as a friend,
Though you are my best friend.
I am sorry I left you alone
And though I was blind
It was you who couldn’t see,
How sweet you are,
How good you are,
How Tut you are.
Your smile is the sun shining,
Your laughter is the flowers’ bloom.
Your hug smells so sweet,
Your touch soothes as a womb.
You made me a home inside you,
You gave me the entire world
Inside your heart.
In return I kept you away and in the dark
So you wouldn’t get hurt again.
I wanted to protect you from further pain
So I didn’t let you see –
How all want your company, just like me.
I only showed you rejection and loneliness,
Of you walking alone in a desert,
Leaving everything behind.
I let you live in inferno, while on the ground.
All love and beauty I kept from you,
I didn’t want anyone else to hurt you.
I didn’t let you see,
I didn’t let you hear.
You had no choice
But to feel lonely,
Because of me.
I preserved our past horrors
In a heartbreak museum
In which you were the sole visitor.
I feel stupid, yet
You forgave me.
You’re smiling at me
And your heart is revealed.
It’s the most beautiful thing I’ve seen,
There is new meaning to everything.
Precious gems sparkle in your light,
There is nothing sore when you are in sight.
You accepted me,
You gave me new life.
In your presence I feel humble and true,
I love you.
You are not walking, but floating on air,
Your acceptance is the most marvelous crown I can wear.
I planted your seed of happiness.
Now that you are smiling at me
I am finally ready to let you grow.
You are surrounded in soft rays of light,
You can let yourself show.
Your love is all I need in this world,
I can lay to rest, or fly, with you hanging by.
For being you.
WRITTEN: FEB 13, 2020
7 responses to “Absolution”
What a beautiful work!!
I wonder how long it took you to write this?
Also, I’m curious to know the meaning of “TUT”
Thank you 😊🙏🏼 this was one afternoon, I was crying and writing and it just came out. It was actually longer and more detailed and I shortened it for here. My name Tut is the Hebrew word for strawberry. It’s pronounced like toot. It’s a very unusual name where I’m from. My last name means either a straight line, or honest.
You are a honest strawberry. Less crying and more smiling please 🙂
That’s the goal every day