I have such difficult feelings about myself
As if I am nothing
Not enough
Ashamed.
I think I don’t see things right
Because I feel so wrong.
Again, I want to run away
I want to disappear.
How will I be okay?
All these illusions I have about my life
Are they even realistic?
I feel ashamed and rejected by my own self.
It’s all so fucked up
I really do feel like a fraud and like I have no one to speak to.
I need help.
I need to be able to live this life
Without anyone,
Just me
I don’t want to.
But I feel that I have to.
WRITTEN: DEC 4, 2021